Happy Birthday To Me..

Happy birthday to me...
Happy birthday to me...
Happy birthday to meeeeeee...
Happy birthday to meeeeeeeee!

Haha.. well as u can guess... I just crossed over from 21 to 22..
Old uncle le.. hahax..

I should say that I had quite an interesting celebration by my aljunied gang just now..
So interesting that I end up eating ink choc huh.. *wink to that somebody*
HAHAHAx.. lucky i only bit the corner.. hahax..
God always protects! hahahax.. =P
Anyway I heartz the pressies.. hahx.. THX GUYS! Appreciate alot..
Went supper with shinuan and wanlin... suppose to be happy...
But I don't why.. i just can't be happy.. hahx.. Maybe I think too much? Or something is really wrong but I can't do anything about it? I feel helpless..

Well many people will think that I should be really happy to have celebrated..
But.. well.. I'm far from happy.. in fact I'm abit emo actually.. ahahx
Something's just not right... Why this has to happen...
How I wish all these didn't happen.. and both of us are back to where we were...
Friends... normal.. nobody reveals anything... and nobody does anything special..
Where we can be so comfortable to share anything and everything..
Just normally.. like how a friend will treat another... no misunderstandings.. no sudden change in attitude.. and everything can be so fluid.. so transparent...

But.. I think in the near future.. none of this is going to happen..
Because for me.. I don't really know how to approach the problem.. neither do I want to do anything that will make things worse..
But also.. I know that leaving things status quo is not the right thing to do either..

WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO? Only God knows I suppose...
*Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation*
*Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion*

How true can these quotes be? well.. take some time to think friends..

Helpless,
-Hua Zai-